My Off Day

Today is the kind of day that I absolutely dread.
1) I woke up with the same headache that I have had for 3 days now,
2) the headache is wearing on me so I am tired, and...
3) I feel kinda alone today.

I know well enough that God never leaves my side, but I sure feel like He has.
Last week was great! I had great time in prayer, I had an awesome time in worship, I praised Him for all kinds of things, It was just...great!

Today, however, isn't that great I have to sadly report. Every now and then I have days like this, I like to call them, in a humorous way, my off day, like Gods day off. The feeling that I'm in, is like that He has taken a day off from me. When I pray, I feel that my prayer stays in the room with me. I feel that I'm not getting the answers to the questions that I'm asking like I usually get. I feel ineffective today. I know that when I feel this way, that He wants me to be learning something, He is teaching me something....But WHAT?

Now that I think about it, last night in prayer, I asked Him to search my heart for things that need to be changed, to convict me where needed so that I can grow as a Christ follower. I suppose that is why I am having this kind of day....I asked for it!

Usually when I sit down before I write this blog, I pray that God shows me what I need to write. Writing this blog is not only to share with readers and encourage others but I also get clarity out of it. I like to use it as a time to sit with God and learn about Him, by Him. And before I start I ask Him to show me, and lead me...well, today, I didn't feel lead anywhere. I didn't feel anything laid on my heart to write like I usually do. So, I figure, this is what I am supposed to write about.

I am learning that when these days happen to me that He wants me to learn something (I already said that I know), but days like today bum me out and all I want to do is take some Excedrin PM and crawl back into bed. Now, if I did that what am I learning? Nothing. God was interacting with me so much last week that maybe towards the end of the week I didn't depend on Him as much. Perhaps that is why He backs off a little from us once in a while, to remind us that we are to always depend on Him for everything.

Well, I am going to continue to look for the answer. When I find it I will write about it.
Lets pray for Him to always make Himself known to us:

Heavenly Father,
Thank You for being so great to us,
Thank You for for everything You have done and will do for us,
Father I pray that You continue to make Yourself known in my life,
that You give me the straight that I need to make it through the day,
and that I would be humble enough to give You the glory that you so deserve.
Father, on days like today, I need to believe something big, Help me to remember
Your faithfulness on days like today, and help me to be patient as I wait for your answers.
In Jesus most perfect name I pray,
Amen