Friday, April 3, 2009


As much as I want to blog about something positive that is going on in my life right now, I cant.
I am torn. I think I am in some kind of spiritual warfare. God is gently pulling my soul to love him, but the world is pulling my body to love it. I am torn between my "sinful nature" and my love for Christ. Its not as though I have followed any of what the world is offering me, however, lately I have been hearing it loud in my ears. The temptation is sometimes overwhelming. And the denial of it seems absurd to the world.

I am a sinner. I have sinned.
I am saved. I am redeemed.

My prayer is that through the loud noise of the world I can keep my ears tuned to Gods call on my life. That I remember that I am saved, that I can claim victory over evil through what Christ did for me.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

The Passion-Amazing

This past week I have felt kind of...alone, in the area of where God is concerned. I cant seem to find the right words to describe the way that I have been feeling so I apologize for that.

On my way home from work the other day I was trying to pray and seek answers as to why I feel so distant, if you will. The only thing that I got out of it was The Passion of the Christ-watch it...rewatch it!

"Ugh...what a sad movie to watch. I don't want to watch that movie again" I fought it. I took my night time bath and found myself sitting at my DVD player, putting in that movie, thinking to myself "what am I doing? I do not want to watch this".

I put it in and as it was loading I prayed for whatever it was that He wanted me to get out of this movie, I would.

The last time I watched that movie was when I first- I mean FIRST- became a Christian.

From the first minute, I was hooked.
What an amazing God we serve. Through the horror of His death, we have life. The love He has for his children is...amazing. The other night as the movie ended, I sat in amazement, in awe, humbled.

It was just what I needed.