Sorry Everyone!

I first need to say that I am sorry for not posting anything in a while. So...I'm sorry!

I have been going through a tough time in my marriage lately so my mind is always focused on that. I have however been in prayer more and have started to learn how to "listen" more, which neither I have been very good at. But, there is something else I would like to address tonight.

I'm really not sure how to put this so I'm just going to shoot for it.

Just because I am a Christian, doesn't make me immune to bad feelings and sin.

I have been asked many times by people, "How can you have feelings like that, your a Christian right?", "What does God say about you saying/feeling that?" and "Where is God at while you feel/say those things?".

When I am asked questions like that I instantly get mad. I don't understand why people think that just because you are a Christian that you have a force field around you. Yes, Christ gives us amazing weapons to use to fight the battle, but we still have to see the enemy approaching. But even then sometimes we lose. Some battles are not to be won by us. What good would it do me to be protected from every harmful feeling or from every evil temptation? If God sheltered me from this world, then what am I learning? Would I cling to Him as much as I do if my life were easy and protected? Probably not.

I truly believe that God uses all our failures for his good. When we see peoples failures with the eyes of the world we think "man, hes got some bad luck", but when we see others failures through the eyes of Christ we think "man, Gods got a plan for him".

I don't know if any of that made sense to you, and sorry if it didn't. I just felt the need to say that failure, bad feelings, even feelings of hatred are things that we are not immune from. They are very real to every human, even if you are a Christian. Just remember, God can use that!